oh hi bloggie!i want u to know that i love my girlfriend so much.i hope she feel it and appreciate those things i did for her.i dont know what happened and what did i do to make her act like that.she's been acting so weird since earlier.i asked my self if she's still my girlfriend or she's another person tripping on me.i felt so sad and i felt that im in pain coz of what she did but i know deep inside her she don't want me to feel what i feel now.i keep on asking my self what happened to my bebs?she still love me?coz if not then imma die in pain.now i keep on thinking bout her is she better now?i wanna tell her that i miss her alot.like miss miss her so much.i hope she's still my bebs.im in pain and my heart is breaking insane.i felt that im a useless crap.all i know is i wanna be alone.i wanna cry alone in a dark room die in pain and make her realize that im dying in pain coz of her.i love her and i need her like i need air to breathe.i keep on crying since earlier bebs.T.T plox dont do this to me.T.T

Bebs if ur reading this please come back i miss u a lot and i love you so much bebs!i need you bebs you know that.T.T


Dear Babe,

First of all,i want to greet you a belated happy happy monthsary. Its our 5th month being together. Am i right?hehe i hope i am. Or else im gonna die.haha. You know what babe i hate you. Joke actually i really really love you. Know that right? :D but sometimes i really really get superduper angry with you especially when i'm pissed off bout something or coz of you. Haha i'm sorry for always being like highblood. Haha lol!watever happens just always remember that i really really love you like REALLY REALLY. :D I just want to say sorry for being so pasaway and kinda flirty?but babe pramis Im not flirt. lol it's the girls fault inaakit nila ako.hahaha

Second,I want to thank you for makin me smile,makin me mad,makin me lol'd so hard,and for makin my life complete and colorful.oha ang sweet ko. :D thank you for always being there for me and thank you coz you didn't give up you keep on holding on eventhough sometimes or shud i say most of the time I act like a bad monstur. Babe I love you so much like so so so much much much..please dnt give up just hold on coz watever happens i will always love you likelove love love love love. :D

Third,is just a message for you.Im gonna tell you that sometimes i'm really really disappointed with you.please stop fooling around like c'mon babe sometimes we havta be serious.you know that right?but i still love you.i just dont want this and that would happen again okay?i want to stop those nonsense fight with you let's grow and act like a mature person?i know you know wat i mean right?anyway,i told you everything the problem ang EVERYTHING right?I dnt havta post it here again and again i love you like LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE you so much.

here's my fugleeh gift :)) katamaran mode yan ahahah lol im sorry tlgang walang maisip eh ahaha

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Hi blog!haha..im using mobile net!its very cool..but too bad its too slow like a turtle walking.haha

Anyway,its our monthsary today..it's our 5th month being together..haha its so cool mehn!haha i wanna gve a fuck you sign for those fuckin insecure..haha lol.. Anyway ihavta go now..

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She always flood my inbox

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This is one of my random post. But anyway i love this day and yesternight.

TODAY:

1.I love this day because mameng duch text-ed me earlier in this afternoon and said sorry and asked me if we could be friends again and she miss-ed me.yeah!Im happy because we're both okay and she's my mameng again. Then we had a little chitchat bout something. and i still love talking to her.and i love her. ofkorz coz she's my mameng right.hehe don't put some malice.

2.We have some fun earlier in our confe with tae(lolois) and chai(ays).yeah right just the three of us but we had some fun. We talk-ed bout the rules and requirements. Then we had some kulitans . I called lolois tae=taewanese,then ays as chai=chainese and then me KHO=khorean.

3.I think were okay. Coz we talked again and nah we laugh and do some kulitans. Then basta i know were both okay but we have to talk and fix everything bout our relationship.

4.We changed the rules and requirements in MTM. i lol'd in the req "you must hate GAYS"

YESTERNIGHT:

1.Im so down then i saw pushiipot OL so ipm-ed her and I told her everything. she's my bestfriend now. then lageh nya ko minumura pero natatawa lang ako amf.weird right?i know.

2.Nagconfe kami with ays,harvii,iko,pushiipot,nikz and me. i LOL'd coz all of us is so hyper. LOL we talked bout someone and then some superheroes!mr.bean.

i think that's all.or shud i say im too lazy to type na. wala nko masabi and matype.tinatamad na ko eh. maybe next time again?

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Okay her name is Bernice Alexa Nicole Garcia.She's a spoiled brat,a daddy's girl,benedict's girl.Ohaoha!She's nice talented and gorgeous baby damulag in this efiin world. okay I kid.

Okay let's be serious to make her kilig. Okay I met her in FTP OT.But we become close in plurk.Actually I dunno when and how as in I dont hve any Idea kung panu and kelan.Basta naalala ko yung sa Ftalk i greet-ed her a happy happy birthday in FTP OT. And that time Im still commited with someone out there. Then my gf and ice are friends.So ginreet ko nalang sya. And tamang tama nasa OT sya that time actually kumakalat yung sig para sa Birthday nya some of the members are using the siggy and ako naman walang kaalam-alam i dont even know kung sino si ays eh. Then aun after ko sya nigreet nagthank you sya at doon nagtatapos ang lahat sa ftalk. Then after nun umuso sa ftalk ang plurk. So i decided to sign up there para makiuso. Then ayun nang-add ako ng mga tagaFtalk then idk kung saan ko nakuha yung sa kanya basta friend-friend lang din. Yun nga lang hindi ko alam kung sinung friend. Then ayun naalala ko nakausap ko sya sa OT so aun nakikiFC ako sa kanya. then idk ang bilis ng pangyayari naging close kami bigla. weird right?I know even ako naweweirduhan din. Then aun nga close na kami kinukulit ko na sya,with a lil'asaran. And then she's so pikon.trust me her patience is not that good. Super ikli lang ng pasensya nya.Then dumating yung time na nagpopost ako ng mga weird codenames like:chuwow,chow,and chu.there's a person behind those codenames and sila ni dess they keep on askin me sinu si chuwow?c chu?at chow? kasi nababasa nila sa mga pinuplurk ko na "i love chuwow/chu/chow" something like that then aun nacucurious sila tinatanung nila ako pero ako ginawa ko syang mystery para sknla. So ayun kinukulit nila ako ni dess.Then i keep on saying the word weak okay limme say nagpapauso ako and thank god umuso sya. Okay si dess pla is our kakulitan din pero medyo malakas din sya mangasar at sumasabay sya sa kalokohan ko.Pero si ays ndi eh.medyo serious sya maxado. Pero sa kanilang dalawa ang gusto ko iniisin is si ays kasi naiinis sya sakin. okay ako kasi yung taong pagnaiinis ka iinisin kita.you're my happiness kung ganun. And then one time naisipan ko hingin number nya/sya yung nanghingi. Basta ganun then ayun text text na kami nun everytime nasa school ako at hindi OL. Then dumating yung time na nadisappear si dess I/we dont know wat happened to her that time. So kami nalang two but may pinakilala sya skin yung bebe nya which is duch.So ayun naging close ko nanaman si duch. and tinatawag ko syang mameng and sometimes nay duch. So ayun we talked some random stuffs with duch.And duch is enjoying my company naman with ays so ayun. Then dumating yung time narealize ko na their is something kay ays na wala yung iba and narealize ko din that im falling for her so I confess-ed it with duch. And then she told me "court her malay mo may pag-asa ka" then sabi ko "hindi naman nya ako type eh.naiinis/naasar nga sya sakin eh " then she answered back "sus trust me may pag-asa ka sa kanya pakipot lang yan" Then ayun ndi muna ako nagconfess sakanya na may feelings ako sakanya. Nagconfe pa kami(duch,ays and me) sa ym.Then sabi ni duch "magpropropose na yan." Then ako naman nabigla sbi ko "ndi ah anu nman sasabhin ko" then nipm ako ni duch sabi nya sumabay ka nalang para ndi halata so sumabay ako sa trip nya nagpropose kunu ako. Then niscreenshoot ni duch at nichanged nya siggy ko. even ako nabigla. pero may binago sya dun. Then ayun tuloy tuloy yung mga confe namin. Then ayun dumating ang feb 20 something .Im not OL and she's not OL.Im sick that time masakit ulo ko and kinda magkakalagnat then tex-text-ed kami 2.Then nangamusta sya sakin and sabi ko im fine blah blah blah then sabi nya feeling ko ndi ka okay. then sabi ko masakit lang ulo ko medyo magkakalagnat ata ako then aun text text pa ng matagl. Basta may tinext sya sakin sabi "aukong nagkakasakit ka and bla bla bla.." then nabigla ako like this then sabi ko ambait ata nito sakin ngayon.Then basat marame pang conve ang nangyari then dumating sa point na pinagusapan namin is nararamdaman thingy. Sa pagkakaalala ko tinanung ko sya kung may feelings ba sya for me more than a friend ganun then sabi nya like nya ko and everyday naglelevel up kinda ganun. basta nasa inbox ko pa yun. then ayun ligawan moment na. Then feb 22,2009 around 11:40pm sinagot nya ko. Oha oha!!I forgot sya din pla ang nagbigay sakin ng first warning sa ftalk.yun din first pm nya sakin. actually nsa inbox ko pa yun and halos sya laman ng inbox ko. Okay we were almost 2months and 12days.

My love for her never lessen like wtf?! nakakainis ka nga minsan pero love na love pa din kita. And since the day na narealize kong love kita never ko tinigil ang pagmamahal sayu.I know im so pasaway like I always flirt with girls. pero look pinapatawad mo parin ako.So tahnk you for always being ther for me everytime Im down you always makes me smile for no reason.I dunno everytime nakikita ko pic mo napapangiti ako pramis walang halong biru.Anyway sorry din kung pasaway ako inaaway kita/ibang tao. atsaka lage kita nasasaktan im sorry.I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.

P.S:

base lang yan sa mga naalala ko.and by the way I want to thank duch for helping me bout ays before and just wanted to say sorry for wat happen-ed samin.And the most important thingy that i shud tell her is I MISS YOU!!Hope we could fix everything soon.

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